I’ve been using KIVA bars, and taking large doses of ibuprofren. These meds combined have been wreaking havoc on my digestive system, yet the two work together to create a pain killing compound that is non-addictive, and more powerful than opiates.
The downfall to using KIVA on a daily basis, I am starting to build up a tolerance. Which means I have to take more and more. When I up the dosage, from 1 tab to 2 tabs and now 3 tabs, I get a high like feeling but not in a good way. The pain goes away, then I can barely keep my eyes open. Sleep takes over and rest is spotty.
I was also diagnosed with Mononucleosis this past friday, that’s what Get for having a fling with a woman, 8 years celibate, and the first one I lay with, gives me mono, because apparently she likes to sleep around.
So on top of the pain, I have to deal with chronic fatigue. And for mono to go away, one needs a lot of rest, and rest doesn’t come easy when there is a constant unrelenting flow of pain in the shoulders, knees and muscles.
I know that I’m getting old, but..
Do we have to drop dead like an old ford car? Run till we clonker out to a sputtering death? What a shitty way to experience an end game…
I made a promise to myself. When I become wheelchair bound, and before I lose complete use of my hands and arms. I’m eating lead.
I will not die with my dignity shredded!