I’m Exhausted

The pain that my skin feels,
the burning, the scalpel-like cut pains, the tearing, the tightness.
The pain that my muscles feel
The exhausting, throbbing, nauseating, soul-dropping, aching.
The pain my soul feels
the emptiness, the desperation, the longing for a simple day with no pain.
The pain my mind feels.
The frustration, the depression, the anger, the sadness, the festering rage.

I lived long enough,
Seen more than enough,
I have had enough.
My mind, my soul, my body, and my heart all agree,
enough is enough.

It’s Been A While

I’ve lost many friends in my life. Some have passed away due to old age, others to illness, and others to accidents. Each time, it feels like a little piece of me dies with them.

Grief is a strange and powerful emotion. It can be all-consuming, making it hard to focus on anything else. It can also be debilitating, making it hard to get out of bed in the morning.

For me, grief is also a motivator. It gives me the strength to keep going when I feel like I can’t. It gives me hope that I will see my friends again one day.

No words can accurately express how much grief the loss of a loved one brings. Even if the world around us keeps moving, we still find ourselves standing in place; unable to move forward or break free from our broken hearts. We just want to remain in that moment, clutching onto every last memory of them- no matter how painful it is.

This blog follows me through my journey of grief- I write each entry as an ode to the people I have lost. In some small way, I hope that this blog serves as a reminder- they may be gone, but they will always remain in our hearts and minds.This is a tribute to all of the friends I’ve lost. It’s a way for me to keep their memories alive. And it’s a reminder that, even though they are gone, they will always be a part of me.