Month: March 2023

The pain that my skin feels,
the burning, the scalpel-like cut pains, the tearing, the tightness.
The pain that my muscles feel
The exhausting, throbbing, nauseating, soul-dropping, aching.
The pain my soul feels
the emptiness, the desperation, the longing for a simple day with no pain.
The pain my mind feels.
The frustration, the depression, the anger, the sadness, the festering rage.

I lived long enough,
Seen more than enough,
I have had enough.
My mind, my soul, my body, and my heart all agree,
enough is enough.

I’ve lost many friends in my life. Some have passed away due to old age, others to illness, and others to accidents. Each time, it feels like a little piece of me dies with them.

Grief is a strange and powerful emotion. It can be all-consuming, making it hard to focus on anything else. It can also be debilitating, making it hard to get out of bed in the morning.

For me, grief is also a motivator. It gives me the strength to keep going when I feel like I can’t. It gives me hope that I will see my friends again one day.

No words can accurately express how much grief the loss of a loved one brings. Even if the world around us keeps moving, we still find ourselves standing in place; unable to move forward or break free from our broken hearts. We just want to remain in that moment, clutching onto every last memory of them- no matter how painful it is.

This blog follows me through my journey of grief- I write each entry as an ode to the people I have lost. In some small way, I hope that this blog serves as a reminder- they may be gone, but they will always remain in our hearts and minds.This is a tribute to all of the friends I’ve lost. It’s a way for me to keep their memories alive. And it’s a reminder that, even though they are gone, they will always be a part of me.